Anyone who knows me knows that I’m about as racist as I am homophobic and I haven’t been called ‘Superlettiebag’ and ‘Superfaghag’ for nothing. I’m just fed-up, or as we say here in Gauteng – Gatvol! I was standing at the till in the supermarket a few days ago and a black man behind me in the queue asked me if I would pay for his groceries. I’ve done it before when I felt someone needed my help so I glanced down at the contents of his trolley and it was full of luxury items. Not basic necessities like bread, milk, maize meal and tins of food but rather massive slabs of chocolate, ice-cream, t-bone steaks and so on. I thought he was joking so I just looked at him and smiled politely so he says to me that he’s serious. I think the disbelief at the bloody cheek of it was written all over my face because that’s when he called me a racist. Without me saying a single word I was called a racist. Asshole. I thought to myself that he’s a very lucky man because if the incident had happened while the tumour I named Irene was still lodged in my brain it would have ended very badly for him. Irene didn’t take shit and lost her temper spectacularly when she was fucked with. Sometimes I miss her.
That brought to mind 2 things that happened
while Irene was still very much alive and well.
The first was right here in my own back yard. I’m ashamed (ok, not really ashamed – I just
thought I’d put it out there to see how it sits) to say that morning I was a
poster child for the saying ‘You can take the girl out of the hood...’ I was sitting minding my own business and
having my first cuppa of the day (never a good time to mess with my ass) when
all hell broke loose outside. My elderly
Golden Retriever Daisy was going absolutely apeshit
and she’s a friendly muttley who
loves everyone on sight, so it was strange enough for me to go to the window to
investigate. Our lovely neighbours
are the Embassy from some God-forsaken African country. I won’t mention which one but suffice to say
it’s one that hangs gay people for the ‘heinous crime’ of loving someone of the
same sex. Anyway, one of the kids that live
there was standing on the wall throwing stones at my dog.
"Hey! Stop that!" *through the window
in my sternest voice*
He has the nerve to throw another rock, waggle his bum at me and stick his tongue out! Well.
Clearly that was me! Before I
knew it I was outside in my robe, pyjamas and slippers trying to climb the 7
foot dividing wall. All I was focused on was getting my hands on that little
shit and showing him what a crazy ass white bitch is capable of first thing in
the morning if you mess with her muttleys.
I don't know what would have happened if my son hadn't come outside to
see what the commotion was about and pulled me off the wall... I don't even want to think of the image
Shadrack now has in his head of his madam being held off the floor by her son,
arms and legs flailing in her pink pj's and fluffy slippers. Said neighbours have branded me a
racist. Assholes. I would have reacted exactly the same if the
child was white, a naughty child is a naughty child, no matter what colour.
The second erm... incident was while I was
walking our dogs in the park around the corner with our dog psychologist. Don’t
judge – I was trying to integrate my beloved late Doberman Samson with our
smaller dogs and finally end the apartheid in our household. There are massive signs everywhere telling
people to keep their dogs on the leash but suddenly this ugly ass dog that
looked like a hyena (in retrospect I think it might very well have been) appeared
out of nowhere and was trying to bite Daisy.
She’s a gentle soul who wouldn’t hurt a fly and this bloody beast is
nipping at her flanks and legs, my poor girl looked terrified. Two black women wearing black t-shirts with
white clenched fists on them come strolling over the rise and shout for us to
leave their dog alone.
"We're not touching your dog, please put it
on a leash" *politely*
"We don't have to do it just because you say so..."
WTF???? Huh?
"It's the law, read the signs" *doing
my best to keep cool in front of the dog psychologist*
"You white
bitches can't tell us what to do, we're diplomats..."
OMG....
Clearly that was me and all previous thoughts of
decorum flew right out of my head without so much as a backward glance. I made such a scene that two old white men
who were there in a bakkie full of black construction workers came running. I
could just picture the headline:
Housewife and Dog Psychologist Start Race Riot
on the Ridge
It got ugly, really ugly and I got nervous when
I realised us whiteys were outnumbered 4 – 30 but my temper had total control
over me by then. At one point the dog
lady was holding me back because all I could see was red and I wanted to smack
the sanctimonious smirk off that bloody woman's face Oh. So. Badly. Next thing she was right in my face, spittle
flying, shouting that we tortured black people!
Me!?! I've never tortured anyone or
anything in my life but at that point I would’ve been more than happy to start with her.
Things only ended when I told them that one signal from me and Samson
would rip all their throats out, starting with their ‘dog’. Gawd, one would
think that one could walk one's dogs in peace... The pure venom and undiluted hatred in that
woman’s eyes was something else – I’m pretty sure if she had a gun on her she
would have shot me, a perfect stranger.
Asshole.
I like living on the Ridge, but these bloody diplomats
really get to me. We pay to live here
yet they act like they own the whole neighbourhood, happily living the high
life off their countries' gravy trains while their fellow countrymen starve to
death. Assholes. Oh, and while on the subject of gravy trains
- since Missus Z No. 5 has moved into the street our electricity bill has gone
up by loads, funny that... Asshole. I'm not a racist, but days like that, when
I'm exposed to reverse racism at its ugliest, I tend to waiver in my beliefs. My
generation had no part of apartheid yet we get punished for it every day. Growing up the first I ever knew racism even existed was when my mother’s best friend
Jubi, her husband Josef and their kids would come over to visit and the
neighbours wanted nothing to do with us because of it. When I asked my friends why they weren’t
allowed to come over anymore they told me it was because we had coloured people
visiting at our house and their parents didn’t want them to play with me
anymore because they saw me playing with coloured children. Fucking assholes.
I don’t care whether you’re black, blue, green
or pink but if you’re an asshole you’re a fucking asshole. I’m sick to death of being accused of being a
racist and keeping my mouth shut, walking on eggshells around black people with
chips on their shoulders in case I offend them.
An old friend of mine often rants and raves about the state of affairs
in this country – to the point where we tease him that he’s sounding more like a
Right Wing AWB leader by the day. I’m
sure old Eugene Terreblanche would turn in his grave if he knew a coloured man
was being compared to him! Can’t help
having a bit of a giggle at that... Ah
well, he was an embarrassment anyway – I mean, apart from all the shit the damn
fool spoke, the fucker fell off his horse.
Walking in a parade... And he called himself a Boer? Perfect example of
what I mean by Asshole.
Last year at Pride when I went undercover as a
lesbian my Gentledyke and I were asked by a black man whether he could watch us
have sex and he kept pestering us for ages, making a complete nuisance of
himself. He got more inappropriate as
the hours went by, completely spoiling our day.
If he was white he would’ve had his ass kicked into the next century by
the men who were with us but because he was black he got away with it. Asshole.
And don’t even get me started on the black women in the parking lot of
our local supermarket. Driving massive
4x4’s they can barely see over the steering wheels of – but if they have
diplomatic plates you can be sure that bitch is going to either scrape your car
or drive over your foot and beware if you so much as say a single word about
it, then you’re a racist. Assholes. If I did the same thing accidently? Then I’d be called a racist. You just can’t win.
I have often partied and had great fun with
people of all races in our Rainbow Nation but I don’t walk around talking about
my black friends. I don’t talk about my
white friends either. Friends are
friends, no matter what colour they are.
So I don’t sit down with Precious for a cuppa and a natter – I had a
white maid in Spain and I didn’t socialise with her either, as one does when
someone is part of your household staff, but I wasn’t accused of being
prejudiced because of that. Besides, Precious
is completely uneducated and comes from a small Xhosa village in the Eastern
Cape and communicating with her can be a bit of a challenge. I had no idea until friends from the UK came
to stay and they asked me what language we speak to each other, apparently it sounds
like a strange form of Pidgin English.
If there was a word for someone who can’t
tolerate assholes I wouldn’t mind being called that at all. An assholist perhaps? But being called a
racist? Yes, I do fucking mind
thankyouverymuch...
Time for a voddie shot methinks, I'm all worked
up all over again.
*clink!*
GeeGee xx
